ups and outs

2006-05-10T07:42:00.000-07:00

haha._
i can no longer take things the way they are any longer...
but who can i confide in?
haha.
sadly.
no one.
no one...but this once abandoned blog.

happy birthday to u
happy birthday to u
happy birthday to teresa
happy birthday to u

happy birthday to u
u shall not cry today
bitter sweet rain or shine
u shall wear a big smile

then let's hope that someday
the facade will not play
but in place it will be
truely joy and elate

no matter what u face
wear a smile and think back
on ur 16th birthday
one true wish that u've made

ppl will come and go
earth won't stop spinning though
so takes things in ur stride
and hold strong to ur hope

happy birthday to u
hide around if u shld
though u might not be found
u won't all be alone

they may not be beside
neither front or behind
but u'll not be alone
coz u still have tt hope

happy birthday to u
u aren't born in the zoo
no lions nor tigers
but juz one happy u

hahax. not bad marhx.
hahax. hope i'll feel better
hahax. ...hahx.

oh ya... julie's letter's so sweet
thank you julie!
it made me feel like crying on the train
thanx. u've made my day x)

candice! hehx don't know why u juz wldn't allow me to open my present
it is uber cute!
hahax. love it to bits and pieces!
ashly the pink pig xD

elaine.same name and ying fang!
thank you! i hope u all haven't spent a bomb on my present
coz actually, i really will like whatever ú ppl have given me
hahax.thanks. for everything. hahax. including food festival xD

geraldine and keet!
thank you!!! it doesn't matter that u all didn't have markers.not at all. it's the thought that counts xD i promise í'll keep that card for as long as i live!
and i really really really really really really liked that hp accessory (hehx. got my name marhx.)i don't know what i can say.. but..thanx. x)

ver!
hahax. no matter. thanks for everything. the slippers(hahax. actually.i'm ok with anything u give..hahax. thanx) ..the sun ..the beach..the ppl..food..
and all u've given me this yr. thank u.

xl!beishan!jaslyn!
hehx. thanks for my pencilcase manx!! i like it. totally.(got sick of typing 'really')
hahax.i'll treasure it. i promise...won't ill treat it like the way i do to my sch bag..
hehx.it's juz so ME.yupx. thank u.thank u. thank u. taugeis in the world unite! ( jeannie...)

arh! who else?

dad mum and kenneth
hehx. jack's place was superb hehx. the cake was delicious (though i didn't tell u)
yes.kenneth huang.thank u for ur card. hehx. not bad marhx, nv get engrossed enough in maple to forget 10th may marhx. xD yupx.stick man was ultra funny.
but quit thinking tt u are smart whenever u switch off the com screen when i'm watching shows alright?! arigato gozimazsu.

hehx.yupx. to the rest of the gz comm too!
jenn..for being the first to wish me xp
juan..for not forgetting
jing...oei! twinnie! my present leh?!

hahax.
haven't have a birthday as happy as this for a long long time.
one way or another.
i've ended it on a gd note x)

yupx. all i've got to say. but hope none of them will read these though.
please continue thinking that i've dumped my blog. hahax. one last thanks.

smile.nomatteruwanttoornot. itmightmakethingsbetterforalluknow. x)

2006-04-07T08:53:00.000-07:00

boo!
hehx. decided to type one entry to pour all that i've gone through so far

or i might go bonkers from keeping too much things inside me

okay.

i don't like this year.
nope. not becoz of the Os
frankly, i can't sense it's presence

ok.. i deproved alot last yr
i was very blur last yr
but i was happy
( or so i think)
becoz the turns i had to face then were not as bad

this year...
i seem to have a clearer picture of .. bascially everything
yupx.
wld rather i don't know some stuffs
not that they are horrible,
but just that__ being blur is a bliss too

haha!
guides' last campfire
nah__ i think they'll start it in like another 5 yrs

prediction:
one guide: why can't we have a campfire... like other schs?
teacher: coz.... blah blah blah
that guide: but that was in the past.. now__%^%$

yupx. and in the end the annual campfire will be up and about again xp

hehx. it was like..
me:` it'll surely rain...just a matter of when'
samename: 'touchwood'
ver :' no! it won't rain..itwon'trainitwon'train!'
me:' it'll surely rain'
hahax. irritating! my prediction didn't come true!
bahhx. hope it's raining there now. xp

nthing much to say about it
they've maintained the same standard as last yr
as usual: nv go with high hopes of having fun
boo. i went there just to see how the campfire starts
bahh. i'm not impressed
placed myself into cold storage for half of the time
figured that i was getting high
and i'll look like an idiot if i start being ultra hyper among the others
so i went to find jas... ya.. there was much more enthusiasm there

hahaha_ ver pointed sherman out to me
wahaha..... cldn't stop laughing
he's so freaking fair and he looks....
.. ya. so much less impressive than what she made him out to be
now i've understood why he went up to challenge another sch during last yr's campfire
grr. to think he shares the same birthday with me.
`shakes head__
`shakes head harder__
sigh. disappointed.
thought i'll finally get to see a guy ver likes, cool enough to impress me.
but. they're all acts :(

aches and pain
it still frustrates me to be unable to sit with ease
bounce properly
or to just walk normally!
and it all started with me tip toeing out of sch with 3 others under ONE umbrella
`smokes
then it escalates after shuttle run during 5 items
and continues to hike ( the pain)
after a lunch-less participation in 10 times 80

must have been crazy that day
`crosses fingers_
these aches better heal before my 2.4
i'm still looking forward to my 30 points x)
cannot.
cannot give up.
or i'll regret for the rest of this yr.
and having to regret sucks.

haha_treasure the present.

x)

2006-02-12T13:33:00.000-08:00

yea! it's like 5.30 a.m.
and i've just finished my hmwrk!
finished up bio
GEOGRAPHY
and finished up zuo wen
in 2 hrs
whoa
can't believe it.
learnt my lesson
i'll nv go out on sun before i finish my hmwrk manx
was so freaked out at 3 a.m. that i had to binge on chocs
went to watch danceworks and to get jas' present at orchard yesterday
and xl cheated me larh!
called her friends out without notifying me
made me feel so extra
actually... it was ok
juz that i was very tired
shopped from 12++ to 6++
and i bought another top from topshop larh!
cannot ...i cannot go shopping le
i'll just brush up on skills on the art of splurging
i'm currently so so broke
grrr
but i've finished shopping for valentine's presents! :D
i'm turning my life upside down at this rate
ok. get ready for sch!
5hrsofslp

2006-02-09T02:22:00.000-08:00

wahaahaa
ladeeda
getting sick of this blog
i may abandon u
bored with a headache
it's illogical and not at all enjoyable to have headache whenevr i'm in contact with rain
why am i so weak?
i can't even stomach food that's slightly unhygenic
others can. why can't i?
irritated.
don't think i'll ever survive if i'm thrown on ulu island

anyway. . .
valentine's is coming!
haha
mum thought i'm a les
when she saw the gifts i got in sec 1
hmm___
what shld i buy?
it's too common to give flowers and chocs
what shld i buy?
i gave lollipops last yr as a basic gift
but i've learnt my lesson on them being not ants-attracting last yr
oh ...yuck.. i'll nv keep them in my sch bag. nv ever again.
boohoo.

sigh. it's only feb and i'm already bored of sch life

shld i try escaping to india and be a farmer? xpp

i'll die within 3 days

or sahara desert to ride camels?

i'll get myself lost and buried under sand within an hr

ohmy.i'msouseless

read this half written story by my bro
not bad mah.
given the way he pronounces his words and his bad sentence structure plus limited vocab
i'm sort of impressed
showcased : nv judge a bk by it's cover
no wonders he's in ge.
i'vebelittledkenneth
hah.

arhh. bored.
oh. i'm gonna gain weight soon
teresa won't be thin any longer

breakfast: roti prata
(so much oil!)
lunch : filet meal at macs plus spaghetti at home
( wait till mum sees this. she'll shriek.__)

and i've been snacking continuosly on chinese new yr goodies whenever i'm bored

boo.
iwanttogetoutofthistinyisland

oh ya! chinese O's out tmrw
i better get distinction or i swear i'll bang my head against the wall!

2006-02-08T02:50:00.000-08:00

wahx. so tired.

haha.
i've just finished memoirs of a geisha
the movie, that is
it's like ..dark.
yupx. esp the start of the show
wldn't have understood the show if friends haven't narrated it to me
it's quite draggy and bland
no wonder the critics critised it to such an extent (heh)
wonder what fiona pun sees in it
oh.. but the little girl..child ver. of sayuri
she's very pretty and cute and innocent looking!!
yupx. so basically i've wasted my 2hrs+ on this horrible show
when i can do something so much more productive:
sleep!

haha__ i must have been a pig in my previous life or something

yes. i screwed my tests up
they're like so freaking simple!
chem: manx. i was half asleep
coz the class was like quiet for once
i was dumb enough to try proving for calcium when they have alredy done that and it is obvious enough that i'm to test for anion.
emaths: my freaking calculator went out of battery!
and jaslyn and i were talking about changing calculator batteries on our way to class in the morn
me:' shld i change my calculator battery?'
jas:' ya, wait till ur calculator goes out of battery during emaths test'
and it happened
WOW right?
jas , perhaps u might want to predict 4 no.s for me?

i'moneunluckypig

yupx. and i finally realised how i cld solve that stupidly simple locus question when time ran out!
swear i cld have gotten things right if that calculator was working
better cross my fingers and hope that i wasn't dumb enough to count manually the correct way.

ok. next was guzheng.
zhang lao shi gave new scores.
and being half dumb when it comes to reading scores
i must have made her wonder how did i manage to participate in syf last yr
hmm... i wld better memorise it or something___

yawnx. oh my. can june hols come tmrw?
when can i sleep with ease?
someone, please throw me at ulu island!

iwanttosleep!

2006-01-23T07:16:00.000-08:00

`YAWNx

haha.
i didn't have monday blues today!!!

just finished typing stuffs in CHI for gz

thanks alot manx jenn.

there's such thing as a language bar in every computer noex

today!

i was in high spirits upon recounting how i managed to fill the fairprice trolley with lots of food
`imagine teresa walking down the rows of shelves and grabbing food like there's no tmrw...

heh heh

chinese new year is coming !

yea!

hope i'll be able to find time somewhere to replenish some sleep

now i'm wondering how did i mange to sleep at 10pm shrap every week nights last yr...

must have been super pro

haha

weird happenings in cedar today

#1. AS 2 door locked open and closed by itself right in front of my face
i screamed and ran away larh..got laughed at by spastic and company heh heh. but it's freaky k...

#2. mysterious plastic bag was flying in the air in front of twinnie and me.
oi. don't litter!

chem lab lesson.
limshiwen poured (sulphuric acid+ chlorine solution+ potassium iodide) with some other mixtures of solutions
guess what.
orange foam started bubbling out of the test tube!

haha. so cool right? xp
not to mention that the sink stinked alot due to that
in fact, the whole lab was fille with chlorine, ammonia and what-have-u
and i WENT to smell ammonia becoz i wanted to noe how smelly it was ( slow nose receptors)
`swear i'll nv do that again
and i was thinking if i'll have aqueous ammonia in my lungs when i drink water___

anyway
many many rubbish happened.
hope i'll be able to maintain high spirits tmrw too

ok.. cannot.. must sleep liao.
gd night! x)

2006-01-21T07:34:00.000-08:00

heh heh.. i was supposed to update 2 hrs ago...
but was bombarded by many convos
now i don't feel that excitement of saying :

i've got my phone! finally!

anymore.

yawnz.
bought phone in the morn
motorolaslim L6
and they've just launched L7
so irritating
was wondering if i shld wait
but obviously didn't
L6 costs like only ,merely 38 bucks k
was so surprised that i asked ..are u sure L6 is $38?
juz realised 38 means san ba
ok but i'm not going to be that superficial
yups.
think that lady who got me my phone loves kenneth
she gave me that black face
(haha.. i was wearing blakc from top to toe. again)
and i was about to label her as 'the lady from singtel with the bad attitude to costumers'
when my bro started asking weird questions like
' jie2, i thought the advertisement with the woman pulling her jeans and sliding the slim in her pocket showed the one in pink?'
i answered his question and looked back at the lady
and she was SIMILING at him larh!
had morning shock becoz of her
didn't know that that lady knew the way to smiling after all

and 3 amk sec guys came and pointed the donation can at me at the same time
grr..trying to bully me? (haha)
but too bad.. didn't bring money since dad was around
heh heh. now it's YOUR turn to do flag day ! wahaha
(hope i won't ever have to do flag day again. can't stand it when ppl juz walk past u like u don't exist. at least say no or shake ur head right?)

( ... typing abit too much from my normal self )

then went china town to shop... bought alot of taiwan mua chee from some barbaric muacheeseller
had dirty rain water splashed all over my hind legs which dried and left marks

accidentally touched this lady at her arm with my black umbrella( beginning to sound like a witch xp)
i said sorry k! but she had to give me that ultra exaggerative expression and had to wipe the bit of water off her arm frantically
WHAT'S HER PROBLEM?!
it's not like the rainwater has aids or bird flu
come on.check the way u react manx.
really wanted to go up to her and tell her right in her face ' i'm sorry. but do u have a problem with rainwater? coz i totally do not think that u have any reason to react that way in front of me. and your expression is horribly amusing ..u can check with the mirror to see if i'm wrong'.
seriously. if i wasn't holding the umbrella to shelter kenneth too. i would have gone up and tell her that or something worse..given my amount of annoyance then.

yupx. then i bought red polo and black khakis for CNY performance
haha
that's like a pure waste of money
#1 i don't like that chilli red
#2 i don't like wearing long bottoms. don't u realise i nv even wear jeans? (well, now u know)
singapore is hot and humid enough.

wahaha. i sound so critical and cynical and super sensitive for the wrong reasons hahah
i'm always like that.. just that i nv emphasise and i've had too much of thsi kinda things today and i cannot forget about them in time.

teresa feels irritating and irritated today.

[boo.. i'm nodding... time to sleep.]

2006-01-09T15:53:00.000-08:00

listening shinwa's song...

it's nice.... though i do not know what it means xp

it's raining again.

it has been pouring for hours these few days

can i have some sun today?

it's getting too cold.. i want the sun.....

rain rain go away come again another day

little children want to play

rain rain go away

stuckathome___

2006-01-07T18:23:00.000-08:00

damn.

i've caught the flu bug. again.

feels like i'm shutting off

i'wld better not have fever.

DAMN IT.

JUZSIMPLYHATEFEELINGSOHORRIBLE

2006-01-06T02:39:00.000-08:00

yes yes yes

sch started. first week just passed

prefer cl for bio...enjoy just copying notes and doing nothing else in his class

mr yau didn't ditch 3p after all. SEE what did i told u people?!

mdm faridah's form teacher

hope we'll get bonded with help from her presence

coz she sort of has a way of getting stuffs through ur head and makes sure that u get things done

and she makes our class laugh..which is what our previous form was not able to do

if she nv tear anyone's hmwrk or gets me pissed... i'll consider getting her a GOOD present for teachers day

and i'm not usually that initiative to give teachers presents.

hmmm..mrs lim is ...funny

yesterday. keet ver and i were gossiping about teachers.
she was standing behind us all the way out to the busstop ..listening to our conversation
yupx. we were talking ..until we heard ' come ,come, come and sit down'
i was thinking which auntie was weird enough to tell us that
and haha. it was mrs lim!

hiaz. yupx. so i'm stuck on the 3rd floor and i'll nv get to be at the 4th .
which is like sadd.
coz i still feel like a sec 3 and i'll nv get to be able to have the rest of our juniors studying below us
yupx. new principal. don't hink she's firm enough
perhaps miss leong was too great a principal
miss miss leong
she's part of the reason why i like cedar
kong su san the head prefect of 2003 is back!
as a teacher.______
hiaz. weird seeing her around in her new position
feeling abit lost now that so many changes has been made.
don't think this'll be an interesting year for cedar___

hope we stay in band one.
but i doubt.
and this time. i hope i'm wrong.

all the same. sch is a boring routinal chore.

2005-12-24T18:51:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

oh no. i feel like sleeping again.
( i juz woke up 2 hrs ago)

hey! i finally logged into friendster after who-knows-how-many-decades!!!

and it still loads as slowly.

hiaz. don't tihnk i wanna touch it again.

went to ying fang's church yesterday

haha. cool. they have a live band.
they sing rock songs
heh. but i don't think i'm gonna pop there again.
hiaz. have lots to say. but i'm too lazy to type.
oh wells.

oh ya. saw keet's dear whom i think looks like a deer.
(seriously)
first ver and i met at tp.
saw clarance lim look-alike there
drank white coffee
went bugis
took neos.
hah! the machine was fun!
and we saw joshua sng look-alike

wad's with all the teachers anyway?

yesyes. then we bought wallets!
yea! finally i changed my pink'wallet'
it's black from myuk.
hmmm. hope i don't see ppl with my wallet though
hiaz. i wanted to keep the ripcurl one for a yr
coz it's my b-dae present after all
but ..heh heh. since neither jas bs or xl will read my entries
it sort of represent something among the 4 of us
it's more than just a gift.
i used to value our friendship .alot. though it may not seem to be so
but. i don't feel it there anymore.
maybe we were never REALLY close i don't know
even xl .whom i used to be the closest to.
don't hold any significance to me.
as in .she's there where she has always been.
but though we've been best friends.
she's just like a i-know-u-n-u know me friend
things change. and no one seems to want to adapt.
we just let it change.

now i'm wondering how my life was a 2 yrs ago with a close friend like her.

ok. it's just a wallet. something's terribly wrong with me today.

yupx. ver bought the white one.
haha.. was saying' i'm beginning to feel attached to my wallet' when i was in frotn of the cashier
yea! love my wallet manx.

yupx. but ver's was like out of stock
( i still don't believe hers is in higher demand than mine. but if it is. it'll mean more ppl have the same wallet as her!! wahahah)
so we went heeren to find. there's where we saw the deer.
yupx.then we went church.
and then we went marina square..there's where we found it.
and then we went esplanade
then the merlion park
and that's where i got us lost
( well i'm a bad compass u see)

hahx. yes yes. MERRY X'MAS.
i love my wallet. xp

2005-12-23T06:52:00.000-08:00

had dinner at 10.
credits to verena :)

haha. the thing about having ur dinner after 8 will get u fat better be false.

went J8 today.
was sort of trying to get a feel of the festive season
was expecting many to be doing crazy last minute shopping
and is disappointed.
haha.
nvm. christmas is not exactly viewed as -important- here anyway.

yupx. the choir there was horrible.
thought someone was grabbing different shoppers to sing randomly
but it was all the work of a choir.

yes yes..the important part which lead to my 10 o'clock dinner
the min xin ou xiang thingy was on.....
yes. it was today. of all days
and. i was with who else but verena tan orange
yes. so we stayed and watch
and even Q-ed for AUTOGRAPH
haha. if anyone can decipher what they wrote, that is.
yupx.... hahx i don't deny i'm a little bitter when it comes to chasing idols
this is the first and i think shld be the last if verena tan continues chasing cute idols without true potentials.
haha. yes..i'm starting to sound cold _again.
think i was the only super unenthusiastic 'fan' there.
haha. and i was like dressed in black from top to toe..
my top was black
my skirt was black
my hair is black
my bag was black
so was my shoes
hmm..hope i'll contribute to their nightmares xp

hmmm..have alot more to say. shall end here though.
merry eve of the eve of christmas____
diao___

2005-12-12T06:01:00.000-08:00

wahahah.

i am glad to say i can still enjoy my chocs

coz i finished all the hmwrk which i CAN do

[that is to say that there is alot which i cannot]

heh heh.

went to have a haircut.

hmm..ya...my hair is thinner

but my pony tail looks like.....a tuft of lallang??

haha. ok.bad description

but i don't like it.

sigh. hope it'll look nicer after some time.

(crosses fingers)

hmmmm

slept for 4 hrs in the afternoon...

sort of an replenishing sleep act for my 2.30am bedtime

but those stubborn eyebags still stays.

haha! verena tan!

kuai dian chong camp hui lai larh

haha. dad doesn't know how to pronounce 'ver-e-na'

haha.. that's funny

haha. ver! yujuan dunno that guy we saw in the library lehh!

coz she say i describe too lan liao.

yes yes..his eyes are damn small

practically a pair of slits

haha. here comes my urge to suan people (tt reminds me of yuntian__)

haha! still rmbr he was reading ORGANIC CHEMISTRY

it looked like some encyclopedia

but i some how had the impression that he was learning to be an organic farmer

haha!
haha! haha! haha!
(sry manx. i'm very high now. don't know why. but definitely not becoz of that organic farmer...havn't u realised that i always go siao at this time?)

wahahah!
i'm going shopping with twinnie tmrw!!

she's gonna wear what I wanted to wear!!
grrr__
haha!
we have very similar wardrobe contents noe!!
let me list:
our giodana polo t
our topshop black t ( we bought both together u see)
our S and K skirts
and our tote bags are also of the same design!!
wahaha

and shld i peirce another earhole tmrw??
just one.
i like the idea of it.
i most probably will.
wahahha!
i asked yujuan if i shld pierce another EYEhole!
i am such a freaking idiot manx.
now i can't stop laughing over that typo error
gonna have a seizure soon.
AMBULANCE!
oh ya!
just rmbr-ed
realised the word 'AMBULANCE' is always painted laterally inverted?!
so bai chi right!!?
was wondering which genius thought of that idea so that drivers can read it hrough their rear-view mirror
wahahah..that person must be those chi bao fan mei shi zuo de ren

CRAP! it's eleven. and i can't sleep
and do u noe that ur damn irritating skin repairs itself during the timeframe of 11 to about 1 or 2 am when u rest??
grrr. that will add on to my eyebags too
oh my bloody hell ( wait..where must hell be bloody?)
or ..oh my clean hell
or oh my fat hell
or oh my skinny hell
wahahahah..this can go on like forever
what was it i was going to say?
sigh sigh. feeling wide awake with nthing to do.
verena tan arh. why doesn't that lousy camp of urs has a phone??
then at least i can call u and ka chao you

wait.
is that my eyelids feeling heavy..or is it just me hallucinating?
hahah. yeah. think i shall go to slp after all
SEE my dear twinnie. i DON'T slp at 10 pm k!!

wahaha. gd night!

2005-12-11T02:41:00.000-08:00

S H I T ! D I E !

help~!!

it's SUNDAY

december's FIRST sunday

arhhhh~~

it's my DEADLINE to my hol hmwrk!!!

or NO CHOCOLATES!!!

and i've not even completed HALF of the bulk!!!

oh my goodness!!!

hhhooowwww??

oh man!

oh tian!

who is gonna help me manx?!

and it's like almost 7 PM

and i'm like still listening to korean songs while shaking my leg

arhhhhh huh huh huh____

wahhhhh huh huh huh____

cannot!!!!

noooooooooooooo~~~~~

2005-12-07T04:08:00.000-08:00

helloooooo~!
heh heh__

back from guzheng chalet...

hahxx my whole body is aching thanks to the ...(reaches out for ruler)

... less than 2 inches thick mattress i slept on

haha.. was fun on the whole.. though there were only the 3 of us left in the chalet for the second night

hah...the few of us spent our first 2 days in soaking wet shirts

coz of the water bombs..haha we were splashing each other with water at the sink

oh ya.. and we got scolded after twinnie accidentally threw one at a little boy

he ended up crying back to his room,,,[ i
still feel guilty]

hehz. but we resumed the game after that :p

the other soaking-wet-shirt-day was spent in wild wild wet

heh heh..had free admission with compliments from yu juan!

[stopped to chat for 40 mins]

shldn't have gone to msn just now man

was bombarded with so many convos i was on the verge of giving the computer table a karate chop

haha.yes yes SAME NAME thanks for the reminder

HAPPY oncoming BIRTHDAY!

hmm..shld i go and celebrate ur birthday with u?

but i'll risk saying gd bye to my chocs for one yr noe...

haha..no larh... shall give tt some thought___

haha. nicholas is stuck with organising 603 gathering

(gd job lilin xp)

heh heh. pai sei manx.. i forgot about him...liying had to describe that he was 'the wear specs de.. and used to be quite short'

(another 20 mins ltr)

haha. finally nobody wanna talk to me liao

hiaz. ok. cannot. must finish this entry first

my brian feels ultra jumbled up with:

all the convos
music
same name's birthday
the time
verena's msg
my aching body
songs i wanna update onto my mp3

hmmm.
ok. feel better le

back to the chalet

the no. of people who turned up was quite pathetic
nevertheless, the rest of us had a great time.
well, at least i did.
coz i was happy with the chalet itself...it didn't spook me out and the toilet was not dirty
not bad..no complains..except for the less than 2 inch thick mattress

bbq was horrible. lots of food went into the dustbin. blahblah

and we snacked on cup noodles at what...1++ am ???

oh ya.

jing han and i left for the room after our supper ltr
coz i ate too slowly.
while the 2 of us were walking towards our block...

i was sniffing due to the hotness of the korean flavoured noodles
(amelia thought i put on lipstick..at 1am??!)

we were walking past this bunch of guys ( no.they aren't very young)

then one asked me if i wanted water

me: no. thank you. (walks faster )
tt person : don't need to walk so fast larh
me: (walks even faster)
tt person: we are bored...come and chat with us
me: (turn around and pull jing han and walk-ran)

baichi.
ba wo dang cheng shen me?
sian zhe mei shi zuo de ben dan?
ni qu juang qiang si ba~

haha. wildwildwet.
4 of us went to sit one of the rides
2 guys had to join us
haha.
then they screamed all the way...on purpose of course.... it was so funny~
6 people: 2 screaming their head off for the pure sake of screaming and 4 people laughing their stomachs apart.

hmmm. think we'll go back and 'talk' to the lower sec about the not-so-great turn out.

click.

2005-12-01T19:11:00.000-08:00

OLE!

HAHA. wahahaha.

dad says we're going TAIWAN.

haha.

`claps hands in delight__

yeah~!

happy happy new year fa ya fa da cai

haha.

{eLATED}

but it's not confirmed yet.

and that's irritating.
coz he said that we were going to hongkong the other time
but mum didn't want to.
and no one told me we were not going after all.
was quite disappointed.

haha. but nvm!
hmmm.hope mum won't disagree again.

went to WORK yesterday with twinnie

haha! yeah! another wish fulfilled

thought i would not get to work during this hols after all

but i did!

heh heh.

went to throw flyers. door-to-door

each of us threw 1200 flyers!!

which means we walked past 1200 units, 1200 families ,1200 houses

and we bent and stretched our hands 1200 times

haha.

after the whole thing , when we looked back at the blocks of flats whcih we walked around in

and the rows of units of every level

i could not believe i walked through that block..and many other blocks.

haha. great sense of satisfaction.

oh ya. but i only earned $24

jing wanted to do till $30

but it was very late

not to mention that my feet ached alot

thought i would not be able to walk stably today

given my history in getting muscle aches easily

or maybe i'll start having them tmrw....

since my muscles seem to be a bit.... retard...

hmmm.
the bulk of my holiday hmwrk is still left untouched xp
hiaz. want to get rid of them.
to think said i was going to finish it by the first week of sch hols
what rubbish.
then i said i'm going to finish it within november

but its already the 2nd day of dec.

there's gz chalet from 5th to 7th__
nevertheless,

i , teresa huang xiuhui, promise that i'll finish my hol hmwrk by the first week of december 2005
or i won't be able to eat any chocolates for the rest of year 2006.

ok.that's serious.

hmmmm. have been shopping and lazing around the whole damn place with verena tan for the majority of november. watched harry potter and going for practices and stuffs.

oh ya.

harry potter is so so so disappointing

especially the front of it.
the stupid director must be a boring pig.
though the last i-don't- know-how-long..30 mins? was rather gd
haha..that was the climax after all
ok.
harry potter is still harry potter..actually..his acting skills are gd
heh gotta admit.
ok. dumbledore is another pig. he should read Rowling's bk before attempting the role
since when did dumbledore started screaming 'silence' like a mad man to shut his students up?
hmm. a pity the dumbledore from the first bk died. he's so much better.
and i miss the moving staircases.
boohoo.
oh, but fred and george lighten things up.
haha. 'Wicked'
cute.
cedric dickory died too fast larh
so much for 'dying with honour'

ok. homework...or no more chocs for 2006.

2005-11-21T11:51:00.000-08:00

grrrr.
i'm so freaking pissed off by mum

ok. ..

actually. a minute ago i had LOTS of things to complain about

but after that minute

i FORGOT all which i had wanted to type.

and i don't feel so angry already.

hiiaz.

oh. ok..i remember.

tt mum of mine : 'ur life is too gd #%$^^%&&5'

then she goes on and on and on and on about ppl being so poor they have to eat tree bark

and blah and blah and blah

yaada yaada yaada

next will be ur life is too gd arh u don't know how lucky you are ..blah and blah and blah

it seems to me that she thinks we are to lucky and shld try eating abit of tree bark?

pls. i'm not mr bean.

since she can think there's ppl who lead worse lives than me

how come she nv thought about ppl who lead so much better lives?

it seems like something more appropriate to say ..perhaps

'ppl got so much money to spend everyday ' or

'others lead so much easier lives arh...' and maybe

'why can't we be like them?'

that seems to be more encouraging for ppl to work harder for better lives

instead of gnawing on tree barks..right?

ok.next point.

she screams every single day without fail. [bless my ears]

today. she started the 'u don't know how lucky u are yaadayaada' rubbish again

i was angry. and my bro broke his promise again...as always

ya...so fuel was added to my anger

and i screamed at my bro

guess what mum said.

' can u not scream at ur bro and stop being a mad woman $^&^$#%$'

'there isn't a tinge of gentleness in ur voice'

!!!!

i still can't believe she said that.

i think i learnt to scream from my mum routinal screaming lessons

and the teacher herself scolded me.

the ceiling's my floor.
the world is upside down.

hiiaz.

i have parents with difficult characters manx.

a series of unfortunate events___

here's the local version : the misfortune of the huang children

sigh.

2005-11-02T07:12:00.000-08:00

yawnz!

haha! i'm at costa sands chalet!!

boohoo.we're gonna check out later le

haha! this place is super spooky at night...unless i think too much

spooky1! same name and i went to the swimming pool at 9 to swim for the 2nd time.
but it was closed!
`sadsadsad.

okthen we went to the toilet there to bathe
but the lights OFF-ed half way
boo!

blah blah blah
lazy to type
shall end here.

2005-10-29T09:00:00.000-07:00

ha ha!

i'm feeling very happy now x)

haha..don't know why too xp

ok...i've got tonnes of chinese to study for

O's O's O's .hiiaz.

but nvm! i don't seem to feel stressed..at all

haha. yes.yes.. i'm worried about that part

hahz. maybe i'm 'numb' to taking exams

exams.no big deal. study. write and u get ur marks.

u know. u know. u don't know. u don't know.

too bad if u didn't study that. u just have to work harder.

haha.

yea~! hols are coming!!

[that's why i'm happy]

i can s l e e p all i want!

AND there's so many things i wanna do

so many things that i'm afraid i won't do anything but sleep in the end

ok.

there's hol hmwrk which i can't wait to get rid of

( hmm..but not now)

i wanna learn fencing! so cool! haha

i wanna learn yoga! [wahahaha]

i wanna go swimming twice every week!

i wanna go jogging everyday!

i wanna improve my languages!!!

haha. and. must learn to develop interest for AMATHS n PHYSICS

or i'll just continuing to dread them and do badly in them. x(

hmmm... oh! must prepare for gz chalet!!

food! games! presents! arhhhhhh

haha! and i wanna try working!

[but something tells me it won't be enjoyable..]

what else???

I WANNA GO SHOPPING.

no...i'll give ice skating a miss...or shld i ?

[the unwanted memory of falling 7 times in the rink...]

i want to ..i want to.....

play badminton now. [haha!]

i want to CLEAN UP my bedroom which is filled with BOOKS.

i want to organise a christmas party!

new yr party!

chi new yr party! (err...)

AHHH! i want to watch f u l l h o u s e

and i want to train myself to speak softer when i'm excited

haha. or i'll sound like a loud hailer in no time.

oh no. i better watch my wallet. . .

wahahah. kenneth huang shao qi is having high fever now and his darling sis is actually feeling

happy about holidays__xp

2005-10-26T06:11:00.000-07:00

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i sound like a primary sch kid who's writing some essay]

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enough.

i declare that typing in chinese is a chore.

can't tolerate having to stop and think of my sentence structuring.

such an unnatural action to carry out.

ok..it's 9 pm now.... i know many will protest if i say that tt'll be my bedtime for the day

haha. but since i'm tired and i need the slp.. why not? heh heh.

shan't try mugging while i'm sleepy

coz i've tried it a zillion times and the aftereffects are

1) not enough slp

2)obvious eyebags

3) nthing learnt

well.. at the very least, i've learnt my lesson

haha.quote from mrs chew 'so the moral of

the story is...' sleep when u need it.

and arh. ver arh. do u know that many ppl get frightened by u whenever u explode?

tsk tsk.

i know no ones gives a damn about what others thinks when one explodes

but still... make it an effort to improve k?

haha. �ԡ� ��

2005-10-22T04:13:00.000-07:00

wahaha. i tried 2 handwriting analysis todayy!

hmmm. gotta admit that the results can be rather true

haha. ok. i shan't complain about my handwriting any longer

afterall . it is it that makes me me. [confusing]

one says :

By analyzing how you cross your 't's, one can determine if you have problems
controlling your temper. Your t-bars join with their stems quite even and
accurately. This indicates that you do not have a bad temper.[haha!]

How you dot your 'i's indicates your attentiveness to details. You dot the 'i'
carefully every time directly over the stem. This shows that you have a strong
attention for detail. You could be a nitpicker or a perfectionist, and you will
likely have a good memory.[hmm..don't think i have a gd memory_]

Determination is your ability to keep moving continuously toward a goal.
Analyzing your 'g's and 'y's will show if your determination is strong or weak.
You make your letter 'g's and 'y's with a straight stem., from this it's obvious
that you finish what you start! You expect to get things done right away.

Intuition is the ability to understanding things without reasoning. How
intuitive are you? To answer this we must examine the letter-spacing of your
words. Because your letters are printed and not cursive we are not able to
evaluate your intuitive ability.

Are you open to new ideas? Looking at the width of your letter 'e's will help us
find out! Your 'e's are very tight and closed. This shows that you have your own
opinion about things and will stick to your own ideas. It isn't easy for you to
be tolerant because you will have a hard time considering ideas and practices
that differ from your own.[sometimes..]

Do you need to be noticed? Looking for the ending stroke of a word to curve up
and to the left is a good indication of this! Your words appear to end without
this curving stroke. You don't need to have others approve of what you do. [TRUE]

How's your sense of humour? By look for a soft, wavy line leading into an 'm' or
'n', one can see if you have a good sense of humour. There is not noticeable
embellishment on your lines leading into your 'm's and 'n's, this means your
sense of humour does not show openly.[TRUE]

Are you self-conscious? The second hump of your 'm's are even with the first,
you are not self-conscious, and have nothing to worry about.

The lack of loops on your 't's and 'd's indicate that your feelings aren't
going to be hurt easily. In fact, you are not sensitive to criticism at all.
You can be objective about the opinions of other people and accept or reject
these opinions without getting emotional about them.[sometimes]

The analysis of your slant is always more accurate answer if you've used unlined
paper. The lack of a slant in your handwriting indicates that you are rigid. You
could put an imaginary ruler beneath your handwriting. You are obsessed with
structure and have a fear of being proved wrong. You are imposing stress on
yourself and others around you. [really??]

In your 't's, the relatively light weight of your 't-bar' to the stem indicates
that you have weak willpower. You are not too clear about your goals. You may
have a vague idea - perhaps someday you will get around to them [oi! ]

The lack of loops you have at the bottom of your 'm's and 'n's indicates that
you don't worry about things. You're confident in yourself and your decisions.[haha.quite true]

2005-10-19T22:17:00.000-07:00

sick arh. sick arh .sick arh

stupid.

haha..but i'm going not to sch tmrw!

or else same name will have more chances to say

:' i saw fluid splurting out of ur nose'

ok. gross.

that's so disgusting

today! i'v experimented being completely unable to breathe through ur nose

wahaha.. it was perfectly horrid.

thank gdness i still have a mouth

haha! i finished reading another story!

something must be terribly wrong with me

chi O's are coming and i'm sick and i 'm actully spending my time in front of the com engrossing myself in some ridiculous story and not bothering about chi at all!

haha

it was so sadd!

teresa huang xiuhui became a tap with mechanical prob once more

because a shuai ge died!

no...it's not sadd because he is a shuai ge. . .

but because he died and bluffed his sister(whom he fell in love with) that he was still living in america

ok. tt sentence does not sound sadd at all

hiyo. i'm beginning to feel stupid.

i wasted my sleeping time to read a story with such a horrid ending which caused me to lose so much salt water

t e r e s a huang. how can u be so dumb?!

jenn and ver said that my eyebags are very obvious

( die . . . i didn't realised that. arh.. the ppl around me must have thought they saw a ghost)

cough coughs

sniff sniffs

hiaz. sleep!

2005-10-18T20:50:00.000-07:00

ARHHH

zen me wo you shen bing le ne??

bu xiang shang xue

qi dao ban si

and the stupid thermometer kept revealing fluctuating temperature consecutively.

horrible rotten wen du ji

grrr

dad: chi1 ke2 sou4 yao4 shui3 !

mum: did u eat priton??

one western and the other chinese medicine_

grrr

i hate medicines!

horrible horrible horrible

sneeze sneeze and sneeze

hiaz

don't wanna go to sch tmrw

i used up 3 packets of tissue today

horrible horrible horrible

giddy. drowsy. faints.

2005-10-15T07:43:00.000-07:00

haha
in the end

i still failed in getting my afternoon sleeeeep

i went to novena with them
and decided i want to go home to catch my sleep

but jing and jenn dragged me into the train larh!
still can't believe i actually slided into the carriage

thanks to that pair of low frictional force slippers

grrrr

ok. same name.
i'm siao over lang man man wu le!
haha.
actually ..i'm quite ok larh
wu suo wei
i'll just read the story line if i cannot watch

i dreamt.
stupid dream
i got my marks back
maths was A1
chinese was C5
ENGLISH WAS 'N'
[does it means normal?? go down to normal stream??]
and s.s geog was . . .i forgot ..but it's really pathetic
and amaths was 39. something
haha.
none of the three sciences mentioned in my report-book-in-the-dream
what does this means??
i 'll drop all of them?!
haha.

haha. not bad. i'm feeling happy at 7.38 Saturday
haha. coz i'm listening to Full House's theme song..
so nice...
juz can't get sick of it

ok. i've played enough.
i've bought whatever i want.
i went swimming.i went jogging
i've done whatever i want to after the exams
except to bake cookies...
but that can wait after the O's
it'll be easier to ask people to join us

ok. now.
it's time to return to my study table.
and start studying .
i'm not going to treat the paper as a worksheet.
cannot. cannot.
coz i won't have a second chance after this.
must not let myself have the chance to regret.
having to regret is stupid.
i'm not going to do that.
yupx.
x)

2005-10-12T22:01:00.000-07:00

. . .
. . . . . .
. . i'm not happy

. . . . . . .
grrr......

don't like what i'm feeling now.
a h h h h hh h hh h

hii az hhiiiaaz

i had the wrong mentality that it's already holiday

no. what a big mistake.

there's still my chi O's waiting for me.. . .

hmmm....

i don't wanna think about it.
it's ruining my moood

ah hh hh hhh h h h h

thought i could rest after going out from dawn to dusk these few dayyyysss

but noooo///

i shld have anticipatated some time will be taken up for guzheng.
arhh jenn juz called me to go out tmrw for gz...

it's so last minute.
ok..maybe not veryy.
but...
. . . juz feel a little irritated
at myself??
perhaps.

ok..maybe it still ends up with the papers
i still can't believe i treated them like worksheets:
it doesn't matter if i get the wrong answer
that's under wrong mentality

i better buck up.

its so neither here nor there

grr.... i cannot go on being blur like that

i'll juz destroy myself with increasingly can't be bothered attitude.

oh my. i feel so ..... bothered..

what else...

`grinds teeth

[untie that knot]
...........
. . . . . . .
. . . . . .

bleahx/

sorry jenn

i think

i really need tmrw for myself to rest before i can continue to do anything

[i feel so selfish]

cannot.
i really tired
i need to my afternoon slp
that's the only time i can really sleeeeep

guilty.

arh. i feel so idiotic.

teresa huang. stop being such a pig.

[ open ur eyes bigger. think deeper.]

2005-10-06T14:23:00.000-07:00

munch. munch. munch.

mum's sushi tastes nice when it's cold xp

i'm tired.
physically.
mentally.... abit.

haha. if ver was here.. i bet she'll start talking about latic acid being produced yadadada
no no.. i won't
i've thrown everything out in my bio paper
haha... actually ..biology is rather fun and likable
its something u can relate better to
not like dry chemistry or logical physics

i don't understand..
why are exams so stressful??
hmmmm.
i still don't understand.

hmm..what shall i do now??
study amaths and physics?

sigh.
sigh sigh.
sigh sigh sigh.
i really think there's something wrong with me.
why do i think that things are so simple when they aren't???
why is almost everything so c o m p l i c a t e d
sickening.
[no. i'm no referring to anything. tt's just a random thought]

monday monday
please go away
though time won't stop running
and exam won't avoid me.
but can i don't take amaths and physics??
bllleeaaahhh
all the above contents don't make sense to me.
nonsense. rubbish.
i've beeeennn dreeading to take amaths and physics paper like since forever....
i don't like these subjeeeeeeeeeects
arhhhhhhhh

quote from ver :' sui2 lai3 jiu4 jiu4 wo3 ?'
sigh.
only i can save myself
tt's sad...
i still can't believe it's friday
I'M ALREADY SO NEAR TO MONDAY!!
can monday disappear??
`no.
fine. i shall be brave enough to take the paper
so what if i fail
[ no no. that must so not ever ever happen.
i've not failed a single subject in a single exam
in the entire 15y yrs of my life]
ok.so what if i don't do well....
at least i faced the paper...
yes yes.. haha.. i'm begining to feel optimistic
but....
WHY AM I TALKING TO MYSELF ONLINE???

haha. ok.
lesson on insanity over,
teresa is optimistic! yes yes yes.....
`nods head repeatively
yea! monday is coming!!!!
i'm reaching the end of exams!!
wahahahaha

crazy.

2005-09-29T06:06:00.000-07:00

haha.

~~MAYBE~~ i shld be crying

but i ~~MUST BE~~ weird enough to wonder what i shld study now

when ~~MAYBE~~ the others are rushing to study.

~~MUST BE.~~

haha. ok. i shan't be irrritating enough to continually hog on takuya's tai2 ci2

haha. can't wait for the show to end.

haha. so that i can stop imagining him skate into class during lessons

[that happened during ss/geog.]

haha. i 'm weird.

haha. not funny.

haha. i don't feel like studying.

haha. but my marks are horrendous.

haha. and i don't want to regret at the end of the yr

haha. and i don't want to start having a complacent attitude

haha. which might just continue next yr

haha. that will be terrible.

haha. but what shld i start studying?

haha. my mind is jumbled

haha.i don't use to be like that

haha. i used to be very kiasu about my grades

haha. and i don't know what happened.

haha. ok. tt's enough crap.

haha. i shld make good use of the time i have now to study

haha. and not blame on the lack of time due to hmwrks given

haha. yes .

haha. i shall do that.

haha. study now.

haha. amath will be a gd subject.

haha. since i need to polish it alot

cloth! water! detergent / wadever-u-use-to-polish!!!

scrub___

2005-09-23T07:54:00.000-07:00

LET ME TELL U SOMETHING!

haha.

1) i 've finished english paper!!!! oleh oleh oleh oleh~

2) i went to slack around with ver at heartland mall!!!
(we were supposed to study. but yoshi's bad food caused our bad mood[this rythms])

3) i went back. dad came back. and we went downstairs to play badminton!

4) my toe is blistered

5) hahaha. i've momentarily lost my mind

have u found it? whahahahah

6) ok i feel so energetic now.

7) want to run around the neighbourhood

8) i've realised that doing maths is fun! ( ok.credit to same name)

maybe amaths isn't as bad as i think after all
( credit to teachers who bombarded me with test papers)

9) AND i 've ALSO realised! this is the slackest yr in my cedar history!
haha.. i think it has something to do with not hanging around jas...
heh heh. she brings the competitive me out. don't like.

yeah. i think i must be the happiest aged 15 person during this period of time
exams. it'll has been there and always will. accept ur fate manx.

ok.dinner's starting
and i 've the sudden urge to sleep
no no! muz M U G! (tea or coffee?)

ok. i know. i've got very b a d sense of timing
mum nv fails to point that out
liek now. exam period. i wanna play
who knows. i might start studying for the Os in dec hols!

shudders at that thought . . . .

hiiaz. my handwriting is so atrociously untidy and hard to decipher

only i can read whatever i wrote...
(of course, after all, it was written by me)

boohoo
tired to rewrite my summary neatly.
yes. it was neater.
just a neat version of my messy handwriting
which is, sadly, equivalent to -still messy handwriting-
someone open a workshop on 'HOW TO WRITE NEATLY'
i'll be participant no. ONE.

wahahaha. scenery at yoshi was so interesting...that makes up for the bad food.
ok. shan't elaborate.

`catching my sleeping------the only exit from having to think.

2005-09-20T18:35:00.000-07:00

i can't belief i actually came across an insolent brat today.

idiot.

my blood is boiling becoz of his atrocious lack of mannerism

stupid friend of my bro's called for my bro

and he was already walking out of the hse

so i asked him if he wanna take the call and he said no

apparently. that idiot heard me asking my bro

and he didn't believe me when i said kenneth's gone out.

pig.

he called again.
and he slammed the phone when i picked it up.

fine.

then he called again.
'can i speak to kenneth please'
wah. u sound so desperate,
u have only barely been apart from my bro for a few hrs
and u're missing him already??

wadever.
i explained that my bro was really out.

and he was like ' okay okay....fine then'

i d i o t

ill mannered GE student spoils rosyth's reputation

i'm so freaking irritated

i swear i'll show him attitude if my bro ever invites him over to my hse.

and i can't believe i actually bothered to explain to him

such morons don't deserve my effort

i might as well save my strength and ram his head on the wall to wake him up.

haha.
ok.
i was so sleepy 2hrs ago after sleeping for 1/2 hr
and this pig actually woke my lethargic brain cells

i'm still so irritated by him.
so rude!
to think i'm 5 yrs his senior
what rubbish.

grrrrrr. 'fine then'

i'm NOT fine with that .

a leopard can't change his spots.

well. i don't care.
he wld better change or i'll really slam his head onto the wall.

if u can't get what u want.
that's purely your problem.
don't try to be rude to me.
especially if u are 5 yrs younger .
or don't ever let me see ur face again.

`can't stand such people._____

i'm sooo angry!!!!!
ahhh___
piiiiggggg____
grrrrr________
iiiiidddiot!!_____

2005-09-05T22:00:00.000-07:00

ok.

i think my blog is like so super boring

coz i'm bored by it.

it's a gd thing

no one else except that 2 weird ppl reads my entries

ok. shall make an effort to type an interesting entry

before i ditch this blog into the long kang.

today.
7am.
`sobx `sobx
`drip .drip. drip.

teresa huang was crying like an opened tap with mechanical prob.

in front of the computer screen.

wahhhh

to think i thought i was cold blooded.

but really!

the story was so sad i practically howled in front of the pc screen.

ok..maybe not howl....

but i seldom cry for such things like stories /drama shows

and i mean S E L D O M

wahahahah

and i was dripping my tears all ove the computer table

didn't realise till i stopped reading and saw big puddles of water in front of me

thought i spilt my tea

but realised the tea cup is in my bedrm

omgdness

still can't believed i cried over the story

but it's so freaking sadd can!

so many people died !

and all of them are the super nice ppl.

and there's this idiot who was so super poor thing

he owes me tissue for making me cry

ok. but the ending was so irritating
not the ending i wanted!

humph

zhu1 ba1 jie4.....

in the end ..another idiot who died went to possess the idiot who owes me tissue

wahahaha

now

i feel the great urge to laugh

spent 2 wholedays in front of the com screen reading the stupid author's story

ok. think i shan't touch the com anymore unless necessary

or my specs will be 2 inches thick.

anyway!

i went for a haircut!

haha!

my hair is soo much much much thinner than before !

about half of the usual thickness!

but i've got weird fringe.

nvm!

i'm still happy with the overall .

okayys. bio lessons tmrw.

have to wake up early!

bleahx.

yupx.

i'm sleepy le///

but i don't know how i'm gonna fall aslp

just can't get over the fact that i cried so much today.

warrhx. must have gone crazy or sumthng.

hiiazzzz. ok!
sleeeeeep!

click! (off com...go to bed.)

2005-09-01T00:47:00.000-07:00

can't find a pic on perseverance

so i shall make do with this.

instructions for me to follow:

1.must remain unstressed.

2.must not let other stressed ppl influence me.

[ they can be stressed themselves for all i care. or i'll just cause them more stress]

3.must focus. concentrate

4.must remain happy

5 must know my limits for slacking.

i c a n . i m u s t . i w i l l .

2005-08-30T23:11:00.000-07:00

LA La la

hmmm

i think my teresa--is-not-stressed mentality
is fading away

bleahx.

cannot. cannot.

i must learn to cool down.

ice! ice! ice!

talking about cooling down

i think it must be the hot weather tt's making me lose my cool

hmm..yes. must be.. must be....

ok.

sec 4's gone.
haha.
as in they don't appear around the sch as often le
yupx. feel abit sadd
it's like the sch has lost it's vibrant
after one quarter of the students are gone
and all of them are so stressed up
and i know i'll be like them soon
losing urself to the book. to ur marks
but on the bright side.
it's working hard for a better future___

hmmm. gz's teacher's day celebration was fun .all went well

cake was gd. [haha.tt's the main point]

we were like sort of ignoring the recipe and just adding wadever we wanted into the bowl

and we were like scopping the ingredients up [with spoon] and playing with them.

going rosyth tmrw.
will it be my last visit there??
perhaps.

hiyo. the sec 4s are scaring me
stupid. it's not like i'm gonna take the papers

boohoo.

i think.
i'm weird.
haha... have i changed alot since sec 1???

i know i bounce alot.....
but when did that started??
i know i laugh in a funny manner
but when did that started??
i know i crap alot and i laugh at almost everything
but when did that started??

choices decides the history of ur life.
what will it be like if i didn't go to cedar and perhaps went to ....anderson??

ok .nvm. i'm confusing myself before i go to bed.

hmm. i think i'm begining to start getting anxious over end of yrs....
hmm..nvm.
coz i don''t know what to do about that
can the sec 4s don't leave?
i don't want to take over and become sec 4s
bu4 hao3 wan2.
grrrrr.. i juz can't stop being sore about having to take o's in a yr's time

bleahx.

hope tmrw will be fun.
hope i'll feel better tmrw

.ZzZzZzZZZZ

2005-08-26T06:32:00.000-07:00

i'm tired.

tired to the core

the core of an apple

an apple a day keeps the doctor away

doctor doctor rubbbish eater

rubbish rubbish i'm full of it.

ok .nvm. tt's just a sign of my longing to lie on my soft and creaky bed

left sch at like 710 today

today is a friday

this friday was a no-guzheng-day

and i used this day to stay back till 710

n yes

my supposed-to-be-so-wonderful friday is

gone.

BUT

hah! hah! hah! ~

we finished the guzheng notice board

[ok maybe not exactly finished....]

yea! i feel a grrreaaat sense of accomplishment

[grins w i d e l y]

amaths test was ok

though i don't feel that my marks are safe

but many said it was very hard

many said they cannot do alot of qsn

so i THINK i shld be ok ....

i think.______

warhx!

so many hmwrk

and i just realised

that after september hols

we'll have EYE like almost striaght away ..

so i'll most probably be like mugging though my hols

and i don't like that thought AT ALL

not ONE BIT of it

hiiaz

and i've also just realised that i bought bus consession pass during this hols

just when i was paying for it.

oh well.

nvm.

ahhhhhh

teacher's day present!!!

the thought of it makes me want to burst

oh yes. i'm returning to rosyth

[so glad i've finally decided]

warhx. so tired

ok slp.

`click (switches of the light)

z z z Zz ZzZ

2005-08-25T18:19:00.000-07:00

boohoo
i just woke up
but i still wanna sleeeeeeep.

hiiaz
let's see
i've piles of hmwrk waiting for me to complete
plus there's amaths test tmrw
[ oh .that reminds me. is there remedial tmrw?]
hummmph
i've not passed a single amaths common test this yr
and now
i've just realised i've left my notes in CLASS
great.
nvm.
brrrhhhhhx. hope i'll be able to do well tmrw to pull my grades up
don't wanna be made to drop amaths
ok. jia you.

wad else
i've tonnes of unreplied letters
and .
hah hah hah
hah hah hah hah
there's open hse on saturday
so
the gz board has to be completed by like....
TOMORROW
great.
fantastic.
fabulous.
there goes my free friday.

nvm.
at least there's a threat to force us to finish the board.
after this, i won't have to worry about it any longer
it's a blessing in disguise.
haha
great.
fantastic.
fabulous.

ok ..wad else
teacher's day present
i thought of TOOTHBRUSH
not to hint tt the teachers have bad breathe
but u have to brush ur teeth TWICE EVERYDAY
so i was thinking tt the teachers will have to think of how sweet we are twice, everyday
hiiiaz. but no ones shares my sentiments.
and we have to celebrate earlier on monday!
and should i return to rosyth?
[haha. it's just like opp my hse]
sadd

talking about sad
the few guides around me are full of it
hiiaz
don't know how to console them
becoz i'm slow and when they explain e situation
[which is so super complicated x( ]
i don't understand a single thing.
boohoo
hiiayoxxxxx
can everybody just stop being sadd
not like it'll change anything
and it'll only spoil your day for i-don't-know how many days
miserable
hiiiiiiiiiaz.

wad else....
oh.
i've also realised
i've been very sian-nish after sch lately
don't know why
but it's just.... i can't make myself feel optimistic
it's just after the bell goes 'dingdongdingdong dingdingdongdong'
i'll just 'switch' to 'sian mode' .
instantly.
hah hah hah hah hah hah
ok.not funny.

hmmmmm.... the sec 4s are busy mugging for wadever-their-gonna-takes
i have the suddden thought of baking cookies for them
hah hah.
but on second thought
it's better that i don't
i might cause them food poisoning
heh heh.

so many things to do
and i'm like not bothering about them
no wonder i don't feel stressed
just like today morning.
i didn't manage to get anything for s.s. inside my head
but i didn't really bother to read up too
and i just took the test without feeling stressed at all
despite me flunking it with splendid marks of a pathetic 2 over 13
i'm a wonder manx.

ok .hook or by crook
i'll pass this last amaths common test
with some proper marks
uhuh.
studyyyyyyyy

`ziiiiieeeeeeeoooooooow

wish of the day
everyone .cheer up!!!!

2005-08-22T18:15:00.000-07:00

i'm not scared.
i've got no reason to be scared
no no. i'm not affected
i won't be paranoid......

ahhhhhh!

ok.
though it's the 7th mnth
i didn't feel like anything around me has changed
at all.
maybe except for the first day.

but today
jenn and jing han
plus me

were at the sch library
waiting for the sec ones to finish their lesson
intially
we were studying
then
____
we started talking about ahem ahem.
and i'm always easily freaked by such topics
i'm just not strong enough to be able to accept whatever i can't see

anyway
the both of them had very very very freaky experiences
esp jenn

urggghh. now i'm starting to feel jumpy and paranoid
can't shake that feeling off
it will only go away after a wk or so....

i rmbr there's once at night
when we were at pasir ris for the gz chalet
dunno who started to talk about such things
i got so frightened
i was just blindly rushing in front of them with my ears covered
i was so scared that at didn't notice taht i was standing at the parking lot where a car was about to reverse into!
fortunately one of them screamed after me
or i wld have just flattened or sumthng.

oh no. how???
we were just talking and talking in the library
one experience after another
i kept listening till i started crying
i'm not even sure myself why i started tearing either
was it due to me being afraid?
or was it due to sumthing else?
anyway
i have nv realised that the ppl around me will experience such things
becoz i don't
n i have nv thought of such things to such extent before
e.g. dreams

their dreams are so super scary.
i'm not gonna relate anyone of it here
i'm too scared to rmbr.

is my life too innocent?
but then again
i like it the way it is.

teresa huang!
be brave.
don't be such a coward!
just focus on what u have to !
[that reminds me. i've got to study . ]
[ok.gd.i've got a distraction point......]
[hope it works__]

2005-08-19T04:16:00.000-07:00

ahahah... i look so spastic

and my hand looks chopped off

wahahahaa

yay. i'm so happy. it's friday!!!

another week of tests done.

yay..i'm so proud of myself!!!

i braved through 1 week with 4 tests!!

ok.haha. back to reality...that's like...normal...

hmmm but really felt 'lighter' after chem test

hmmm. hmmm.hmmm.

gz was horrible

had to teach the sec 2s and 3s

ok.yes. i'm not stern enough

i'm using the friendly approach...

which.apparently..is not working well

guess i'll have to be more stern and decisive.

gz has ppl with bad attitudes.

can u believe that?

i can't really accept it.

hiiaz.

things i'll have to take note during gz:

1!) [ do not bounce when i talk to them ] haha.my irritating habit.nvm.i shall sit on the chair at all times....

2!) [ don't ask for their response ] i'll only be wasting my time..i shall have to decide on what i want them to do and just tell them straight to do it

3!) [ think faster.decide quickly ] don't give them the chance to talk to others..or they'll start talking and i'll have to get their attention again n again

yupx..shall see if more irritating stuffs arises.

but even if they do.

they won't appear here bcoz i've got too many things which i know but i can't say.

and that's very torturing

boo--------hoo.

2005-08-16T21:13:00.000-07:00

Ho Ho (same name) arh!

ling same name!

what did u do to ur blog?!

so irritating

just when busy me decides to link u

u said bye to it.

hiyo. i hope it's not linked to today morning__

though i'm 99.9 % sure it is

hiyo.

teresa huang hee hee's own opinion:

NPCC is so irritating can.

ma'mes not happy . scold.

and the way they scold is just like u owe their whole family a thousand bucks

each.

so irritating.

it isn't like u joined this cca to get insulted by ur supposedly-respected- by-u

seniors to tears.

to think i almost joined np with xiuqi in sec 1 .

thank gdness i made a gd choice

to choose something that allows me to express my opinions and feelings freely.

or i think i'll just die of self suffoscation.

but then again.

i know same name will disagree.

hiyoz. but easily laughable hoho was crying today morning.

can imagine how bad the thrashing must have been

whoa. really. i'm so glad i didn't join np.

i can't stand being scolded. i'll just cry.

boohoo. my tagboard is so super boring. (realise only 3 ppl tagged?)

but since i didn't tell anyone about me changing my blog bsides hoho n ver.

what can i expect?

boohoo.
i really still cannot believe i'm sick.. how can i fall sick in a not-holiday day?!

boohoo. dad's in china. and he is also SICK. the last time he called, he kept

coughing over the phone ..and he's running a temperature...hope he's

recovering___

flu is horrible.so is cough and sore throat.

irritated.

my voice sounds so muffled and childish.

can't stand it.

aahhhhh ( and i can't shout)

frustrated.

physics test.chem test.

how the freaking hell do u expect me to study when i can't even sit up straight

without feeling giddy and cloudy with a stuffy nose

stuffy nose = inefficient respiratory system= not enough oxygen for the brain =

teresa feeling like she is turned upside down = cannot study = want to sleep.

great.and there's gz tmrw and i 've got to sit facing 2 air conditioners for god-knows-how-long

BOOHOO!

2005-08-14T06:04:00.000-07:00

boohoo
i'm so sick.
so pissed.
so irritated.

i thought i would only get sick during holidays?!
it isn't any holiday know what.
so why the freaking hell am i s-i-c-k??

full of rotten mushrooms (refering to life)
and the best thing of all is
there's gonna be 4 tests next week
and i've only got sunday to study,
since saturday was spent doing flag day
oh great.
`sniffs

someone save me____

i don't know what can
tried studying chem
but all i could make up of what was in front of me
was just a mere whirl of words

ok.
so the medicine which apparently is supposed to get rid of ur freakin flu once consummed is NOT working this time.
hiiaz. guess i shall just have to continue sneezing till it gets sick of infecting me and goes away. . .

i. don't. like this.

ok..shall go back to the whirl of words.

2005-08-12T22:00:00.000-07:00

l e t m e t w i s t l i f e p r o p e r l y w i t h a s p a n n e r . . .

if only this can be done.. if only...

ok. mind's in a whirl
muscles ( if they have not still turned into fats_) aching

i think i've been stacking up all the different emotions i come across

stacking .. stacking....

there's always space for the happy ones

while the sad ones will just take up space

stacking..stacking..,

till there's no longer anymore space and i just burst out or come across something

that'll act as the 'emotion truck' and clear all of them away

and i'll start stacking them all over again .

now. i want to clear them all up.

i've decided. :)

yupx. blog is a rather boring thing now.
but for the sake of myself being in a happy state
i shall 'clear' every friday!
nvm. rubbish....

[clearing in process]

studies: (pessimist) = unrewarding results. over competitive environment.
(optimist) = haha. recently. i spent one whole day studying for the biology test.
and this was the only time i really really understand the whole chapter!! it's been soo long (3/4 yr) since i've felt like that. ok. if my results are gd, i'll know what to do ... :D (cross-fingers)

late home-coming hrs: (pes) =tired. no time. help!!!
(op)=hmmm..none. shall change to make sure i don't con't reaching home after 7 p.m. from sch.

cca: (pes) = so many things undone! (pressure_)notice boards.bonding games. untidy cupboardmany many things can't function due to incomplete stuffs.
(op) = no more sickening performances! shall fix deadlines so that we can finish stuffs( solution to my prob! haha_)

sports:(pes) = those long bus rides on 73 are converting muscles into fats and eating up my time to go jogging.i feel lethargic after jogging. NYAA....
(op) = hmm... shall change back to my usual bus routes to give myself more time. than i shall go jogging :) shall test my perserverance and tolerance level by jogging loong dist. -insane, but i like the thought of it- x)

eyes bags: (pes) = `yawn~my eye bags are getting from bad to worst. so awfulll.
(op) hmmm..nothing optimistic. still looking for solution....

lack of confidence = (pes) urmm.. i only say /do things when i'm very sure and clear so if i'm not contented with something.. i'l not be confident.sad but true.
(op) hmmm... shall hope that i'm able to stay cheerful and won't allow myself to think too much and be unconfident (rotten solution___)

school bag : (pes) = sch bag is so bulky and heavy despite having all txtbks lying at home .urgh.makes me slouch.horrible!
(op) haha.maybe it's time i change my sch bag!! this shall be a gd chance for me to correct my slouch-ish posture.

[i feel so much better already :) but it's not all cleared yet :( ]

diff attitudes towards diff ppl .nowadays, i don't feel as friendly as i used to be :(( seems like i know bother to talk to you if only i'm close to u. i used to wave at new friends. now. i catergorise them under 'i-don't-know-u' and i won't really make an attempt to befriend them. :((
(pes) = don't bother about them. it's none of my business.
(op) = shall make it an attempt to be nice and friendly again! (vague solution...)

eating too much.(pes) i'm accumulating fats! ahhh
(op) this will ensure that i'm not such a skinny bamboo.
but i think i shall cut down on my snacks intake, esp before dinner =p

strong need to focus. i can only do things one at a time.or i'll go haywire zeeeiiiow___(pes) do things slowly. hard to cope with many stuffs
(op) gd results when i focus.

sick.(pes) = i feel horrible.terrible.sore and pain. my throat's sore ..again. this leads to cough and my cough usually lasts for more than 2 mnths. what can be worst??
(op) = now i'll know how to treasure my health after i recover =p

great. i'm so slpy now i can't even open my eyes. and there's flag selling tmrw. shall i not go?
there's chem.physics.emaths.amaths test next wk i'll only have sunday to study since i won't revise properly during weekdays ... what to do???

do u think my throat will recover tmrw? ` i doubt

2005-08-05T08:03:00.000-07:00

haha.

neglected my blog for almost a month.

and now i'm abandoning it.

there's too much content.

get reminded of stuffs when i read my blog again.

and life shall stop being sucky.

hopefully.

has been long since i walked in the rainwhere

u'll only bother about getting out of the rain.. and nthng else. .

hopefully.

my studies shall improve.

so that i'll stop ranting about studies

though quite unlikely , since i'm now sitting right at the back of the class

attention is not 100%. well.. at least not for > 2 lessons a day

friends.

ppl who just seem to pass by me without much traces in my memoriesi've

realised that all along, besides one exception, my best friends only last for 2

yrs.not tt i'm substituting this for that, but it reminds me of maids signing 2 yr

contratcs with my family.

first impressions.

i am shown time and time again that first impressions are mostly true.

though i don't heed them.

sec 3 term3.there's so many handing over of positions.

expect the unexpected.

bias or not. decisions made can never satisfy Everybody.

there's so many things whirling around me want to be the middle of a tornado.

to stay calm and see things clearly,which, obviously, is rather impossible.

keep running up and down lately.

been reaching home at 8++pm

but finally. this week's weekdays have passed

teresa can finally slp peacefully with no worries of malfunctions of e alarm

clock.ok..eye lids are pulling dumbells...zZzZZZZ